- Brian Maierhofer
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burnout and depression
my story
Hi friends,
I wanted to tell you a tale about my 2nd year of grad school and my rough start to working as a therapist.
Here’s my story…
Anxiety, Brain Fog, and Overwhelm
I had been hired full time at a treatment center, working a case load of 22-24 clients per week.
If you’ve ever done therapy or coaching work, you know that’s too many clients, and this was on top of course work, research, and writing my graduate thesis.
Needless to say, I had a lot going on.
Hiring a student full-time is not the norm, but they needed someone and liked the work I was doing.
I considered the reality of working full-time while in grad school and figured, “why not? Let’s give it a shot.”
Fast-forward a few months and I was crumbling.
Anxious, burnt-out, and depressed, every night after work I found myself glued to the couch.
I could not bring myself to do anything, I felt broken.
It had been a long time since I’d found myself unable to manage my mental health.
Normally, I would meditate, go to the gym, read a book, cook dinner, etc. but I was drowning and consistently found myself horizontal and DoorDashing.
The state I was in was like nothing I’d ever experienced before.
The physical fatigue had heightened to such a point that it was difficult to function.
If I was going to be useful to anyone, I had to find a better balance in my ability to take care of myself.
Therapeutic Landscape
While struggling to manage my burnout, I thought back to the somatic therapy class we had during my first year.
Our professor had led us through a Stress Release workshop and I recalled the powerful stress discharge I had.
It had been one of the more powerful moments of my life, an experience unlike any other.
I questioned why somatic work wasn’t a focus in grad school?
We only had one, single credit class on somatics and compared to the extensive classes on pharmacology this felt like a crime.
The therapeutic world exists at the intersection of:
a) altruism (a real desire to help people),
b) late stage capitalism (big pharma and big insurance),
c) bureaucracy (diagnostic boards like the American Psychological Association).
This presents a unique problem because:
a) People high in the trait of openness (therapists) are prone to naiveté and manipulation.
b) Outside influences shape education, diagnoses, and treatment.
c) It cannot keep pace with what innovate practitioners are discovering for themselves
I knew the body had a natural healing power.
I had witnessed deep stress discharge from my nervous system and the complete rejuvenation that came from it.
I also knew it was free, available to everyone, did not require an outside therapist, and was easy to practice.
Recovery
Over the next two years, I immersed myself in the practice of somatic psychology, taking my education into my own hands.
I discovered a profound sense of liberation and it became the key that unlocked my ability to manage my work-life balance.
With my clients, I was no longer confined to the limitations of traditional talk therapy. I embraced a holistic approach that honored the intuition of the body.
Somatic therapy changed my life and I’ve seen it change the lives of my clients.
This is why I’m so passionate about what I’ve been building these last few months.
I am very excited to share it with you.
This course is a 30 day journey into your mind, body, and spirit.
It is a synthesis of my experience, my education, my research, and the experience of my clients.
It radically changed my life, no bullshit, and my hope is that it will do the same for you.
If you want a visual on what somatic work looks like click here.
While watching this know that all of my body movement is involuntary. It is my nervous system undergoing a natural reset.
Notice the look on my face after… happy, relaxed, and joyful.
Everyone should experience this.
Best,
Brian Maierhofer

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